my, myself and dilemma

the unhygienic but yet appreciable, as you feel. once the polluted air released from all the vehicles hits you on a chilly winter day. Still knowingly we like to accept that : every single moment you accept something to anything as a truth (reality), the imaginary or unreal comes to existence (like a newly wedded partner - oh come on, haven't you heard, they say human being believe in that there should be someone in their life who loves them unconditionally and one whom they love unconditionally.)

When sun and moon can live in harmony, then why cant humans do? Sun is a tough nut to crack. landing on sun's core (5000 degree Celsius) and harvesting its energy has always been human's dream. whereas moon on other-side, let us reach to itself. but hasn't given the clue what to do there apart from spying on us and bringing night. Finally light also gives way to darkness at the end of the day.

everyone should learn, understand, accept, appreciate and evaluate their good and bad side. what you want is entirely up to you but with this approach don't think of making lot of close friends. so don't carry fear of being alone, otherwise accept your drug and have it. may it be medicine, meditation, exercise, reading, writing, playing etc. or doing nothing (because doing nothing is also doing entirely nothing. to actually have the clear idea and knowledge of really not doing anything is an achievement in itself.)

In the end once you make yourself busy with what you like doing. A person doesn't have enough time to think of what others might say or might think. I ain't free enough to worry about your problems to deal with. (and you might have heard, one who resorts to fighting has already lost it). If you had a power to understand and change, everything you want at your free will, you have already mastered art of life. But if not then, my dear friend "the pain is inevitable and suffering is optional"

Any religion, cult, ideology all leads to teaching the art of controlling your free will. Each of them with so many followers. Simply and truthfully, how many actually learn, understand and comprehend the teachings/art/ study/knowledge. Moreover no one really knows how many people use the knowledge for wrong purpose or right. No one can determine, because any decision take is not wrong. The right and wrong are the steps taken to implement it. That's why no-one is perfect and not even the so called almighty. everyone has their on vices. the pressure to prove yourself right should not make you retarded.. be careful and take care

Black Clouds

Shhhhh! i am not sure why i am even writting this time. Its not like i am jeopardizing or something. I am not afraid to look towards sky as high as i can. But, everytime i look their its sooo gloomy because of dark black clouds are hovering all over my head. When someone comes and ask me is their anything new in life.
I have an answer yeah there is... its about time when i am going to get f7ucked. L O L Z and its not something as if i dont know. starting from life, gmat, pip, age. what is this. i am like the last person whose going to come alive if i think in this way. But, i am still playing it as if nothing has happend. But for how long i am going to play as if nothing's going to happen or nothing gona happen.
Lets wait and watch because time is coming near and i am feeling too bored of my life. Need to do something just more than living.
Lifeless & meaningless LIVING is enuff for now and i want more and more and more...
what more . where more, when more this even i am not sure. bt a LOT more..

Happy diwali

somedays back i was thinking about absolute relaity, relative and illusion. bt today i m thinking. why shud i believe there is god. the best game the god ever playeed was to make this illusion exist that god existed. After that he introduced devil who is a brother of god but who also never existed ( cain and able).

Now if any1 wana debate on the argument passed by me saying god played a game that he made us believe he existed. so if u believe that if upper statement is not accurate or proper. Only then answer this question right now (u gona read ahead - like a believer in urself or like believer in god who still thinks a fake idol is everythin in his/her world).
Q - if god wanted everything nice, gentle good things to happen to this world. then why did he made man/woman who are destroying everything,.. since medivial times .. man started striving his life upon ..fruits and berries (itself destroying equilibrium). then killing other animals, then making everything go hay-waire (from lighting fire, by reproducing. probably god wanted this certain space in the so fuckingly big universe never seems to exist and if it does no-one can prove their is anything else in here. ( a science is made on a myth - who beleives god entity but still belive there is universe. another universe.) if u have such genious brains working on thing so hard.. hw do u can even dream to see something that never existed for anyone else. That's why even God doesnt know why did he created man and woman. ... u gona believe him .. who doesnt know what he is doing.. is not people like those are referred as retards, lunatic & sent to mental asylums. .. so that means god is according to u reside in those places.. that means all religic places to believed by (those people's whose gona answer this 1 big question) - as going to mental asylum. i dont think this is what a person with enough worldly knowledge will belive..am i not gona preach anything. i just want an answer for my question..so when GOD DOESNT KNOW WHY HE CREATED HOMO SAPIEN"S. how can u defy or approve something as illusionistic than why cant i say illusion and realistic is not existent and also its existent. come on dnt go down the drain saying now i am trying to prove i am also god - lunatic.. by not knowing what i m writting in here. just come on the topic and answer .........

bt for others who belived in themselves.. Please continue till others continue to answer a small puzzle of this life for them..
Kaboom... happy diwali .. just 1 day late. lets burn some crackers...

One for all and all for none.. a force never taken in account

the answer to above question can never be answered in a way yes or no. why bother to go and discuss something where we dont have say. i wud rather try defying a small and general fact. so many people belive in god..
bt not every1 remember the god in their happy times. its always in their sad times they come to the conclusion that god exist. as if its not god .. he is some kind of rambo ... who will come and solve all hurdles and troubles in the world.

abt taking god from the curriculum.. 1st of all we all aint on a consent even if god is 1 identity or not. and even if god exist (just cz ppl cant explain a lot of questions and things in nature) they name it as god presence and miracle.
what i m trying to say it might be possible that all of these things whch are unexplained and finally termed as god's will or god power. can also be governed by a force. a force so strong that can govern the presence of every photon, electron in the space... even in vaccum,..
a force which is unkown to us. probably attributed to the dimension whch even we dont knw or never considered..

world exist in equilibrium .. wht equilibrium it exist in dynamic state wid entropy always increasing.....

will write later ,.. i m tired to write about this now

Ground Reality

Ground reality - topic in itself gives a sense too deep but i dont think so. I just wanted to know what is the similarity between imaginary and relatively. Apart from the fact that they both are indescribable because they can be described neither as existent nor as non-existent. They are not existent because they do not exist in fact; they are non-existent because they exist as an illusion or as an appearance.
The absolute (THE PERFECT) - which also is indescribable being beyond intellect, is the only reality anyone can ever believe upon. Moreover, imaginary is purely imagined by intellect, relative arises out of causes and conditions. And The absolute - the perfect - exists independently in itself and by itself.
The 3 main factions of limited mind set :- "Imaginary, Relative, Absolute (ultimate perfect). The imaginary is devoid of existence because it is absolutely unreal even though it exists as a name or as an illusion. The relative is devoid of independent existence because it doesnt exist even though exists as an appearance. The absolute is devoid of thought constructions because it can not be grasped by any faction of the intellectual mind even though it exists independently and by itself and can be directly realized through spiritual experience.
The ground reality still remains "the relative phenomenal world devoid of independent existence still exist and still believed to be non-existent".

Err that was too much of philosophy for 1day i feel sleepy now but cant have soo much to write i am not even sure if i will write any further.




they dnt exist not becz they are not existent bt bcz u cant see them or feel them. think abt the defination of something tht exists.. bt even then imaginary & relative exist as an illusion

First time

I should have written this post like yesterday but cudnt get time (actually was true lazy to write yesterday) :-p.
27th Sep, 2009 - The FIRST TIME - this day is marked in my history. If i ever go down in my pensive after like some years i will always remember this day. I am actually software engineer right now working in a firm called Accenture. (dont worry it aint my dream job, neither my intrest, i m doing this because i just got this as 1st and i m nt sure what i wana do in my life. ) Getting into the personal details of my life is not why i came here. i m here to jote down that 1st time. IT HAPPENED. (o.O btw what u guys r thinking.... f__kers dont even go in any wrong thinking line. i wud hunt u down and kill ya :-p)
i was wid 2 more friends of mine, saturday night as i m broke for last 2months as i was on leave widut pay so we didnt went out or something. all jammed in my rented place a small room, 3 single, lil white rum & little black rum, a lotsa food, Above all 2bricks of ice cream (come on i can never ever forget that - i meant bricks of ice cream .... hehhehhe)
hehehhe dont worry this is actually nothing this place is a palace for bacheolars u can dream about it i have it.
after long chatting sessions, drinking sessions, eating sessions, we all went to the rooftop around 4:30am (rooftop is like 6th floor - lets say roof is at enough height. if someone wana jump he/she will die and if some1 wants nice breeze he is in a correct place).
with bottle of water in hand and some SandWiches a long climbing of stairs dude (its like gng to vaishno devi - a famous holy shrine of Hindus - been their 3 times in my life, as it was close from my hostel)
finally we all are enjoying the weather at the top and merrily gossipying and taking each others happiness for a trip. Then suddenly i heard one of them saying we will play ringa ringa roses ( a childhood game) but my friend had a condition. No1 talks about playing this game to any1 as it can hamper my friend's image.
I was like watchin image in the shadow and trying to hamper it and my friend is watchin a image of a wall and thinkin its me. my friend was high -- hi for 1st time since the time i know. And he was on a roll.
we talked about like lotsa things i dont even remember what all but that night widut starless sky. It rained like cats and dogs and we came down to my apartment around 6:00 Am to eat the ice cream that was kept in the refrigerator. It was something that none of us wanted to miss but the fact was all of us were living on different dimensions.
There was nothing like adventrous apart from the fact of climbing the stairs without talkin so no1 else in my building gets up. But no matter what happens went up had a chat for sometime.
One of them was giving fundass about street lights reflection and causing the orange colour in the sky (it was actually very early morning ... so orange colour was because of the sunlight somewhere in the world coming towards us )
Standing their and thinking i also thought about this fact ( Even darkness has to give way to light) it actually felt true that if you know your dream u can get it. I m still wondering if my dream is to go in politics or somewhere else. But i feel till now that i shud be in politics .......

In India Politics is aint something shud be in. Its a war out in parliament but not with arms or anything. Its a war with animals. The one who lives is not the one whose the best .. he/she is the best conner/cheater/Harami.
I dont wana be anyone of these but i wana change this system and i think i will someday.
in 1949 (wow thats like 50years back ... a person named as Dr B.R. Ambedkar wrote this constitution i am gona change it. I am not hoping to change it for my best but for the best of the majority in the country.)
everybody is selfish in this world and i m also. But aint this selfish to take out bread and butter of a poor to buy 4different kinds of dishes in a meal and waste 3 and a half outa them.
Everbody thinks for himself (one of the best quality) - bt just for 1time outa 1000times do something for some1 else ... this world will be a lot of better place.
I think one day someone has to teach to people they are social beings so when they see someone of their type they should greet them via saying hi, vanakam, helllo, namaste, other salutations. not stab a knife in his/her throat, con him/her, murder, kill, steal etc.. etc...

Dont think and wait because time is not gona stay their for u to think. So do what u feel like. if you feel like running away go ahead no-one can stop you from doing what you want. But, just think is it worth it and whats gona happen to the people ur linked with..........

if you can answer this question you know your path. I am still standing at the divergence and i dont know whats my correct path,

Ever heard about Indian Mythology. It revolves about 3 main gods Brahma (creator of Universe), Vishnu (preserver of the universe) and Shiv (the destroyer of universe). Come on its a long story and i aint gona write it for anyones benefit. DODO not any cost go read it yourself. The only identity i will be focussing from now onwards in this post is gona be Siva (the destroyer). His identity is incorporated with some specific features i think he is the one who gave birth to all the sci-fi movies. He is the only god who is purplish colour ( because he drank the poison, otherwise whole of the poison would have killed everyone in the universe). He lives on mountains tops of highest mountains of Himalayas because of the heat generation due to the poison he drank. Don't worry this is just a starting he murdered (brutally cut the throat of his own son) but when he realised his mistake he put elephant's head on his son's body (WOW WOW WOW) this isn't possible till now. He has a third eye on his forehead just in the middle of his both eyes. That eye always remain closed if that eye is opened universe will be destroyed (looks like eye of sauron - in lord of the rings :P). Moreover, dont worry he aint too much of a party man u wudnt be seeing him a lot :P. This god legalises the use of drugs. He takes BHAANG (i dont knw the english name of this drug, but its amazing drug in itself) as offerings in his own temples. (Legalized drug and use is allowed especially on shiv ratri (his B'day). Last but not least he can beat anyone in dancing competition (should perform in any of these talent shows). If he dance (TANDAV - dance of shiv) the world will destroy. He is a powerhouse of all the stunts and supernatural powers u cud have ever seen on TV or read in books. I still think the mythology has mistaken the identity of Shiv, he should be a devil as per the power description it has. Atleast it would be more fun if he is on their side.

Devil dance thats what i say to it. hmmmm u wud be thinkin what retard am i and why am writting all this. I m writting all this is because i m doing that devil dance myself. The only differnce my devil dance (DD) and tandav is. My DD destroys me big time and tandav destroys the universe. hehehhehehehe
Think think think thats all i gona do for next some days whole of my next 50years depend on my next 6months if i screw them this time i would have to make some serious changes in my life. These changes aint the simple and easy ones, they gone be turn tabels. time keeps changing from 1 second to another, people keep on changing, life keeps on changing, but even in the end ur the only one who has to move on because life never stops and dont fuck around 2much because u have to be damn freakingly f__cklingly lucky to get 2nd chance. But for me i m screwed to many times. Sitting in this new office in bangalore still in my 1st firm after the suckiest rating of my whole life. dont worry i knw this bcz i knw it from once and all. I will avenge myself from this verbose of vengenacne. The only thing that reamins will be VENGENANCE, from 2people they have to pay!!!
apart from this rest is all been fine.....

catch u up in smtime dodo