First time

I should have written this post like yesterday but cudnt get time (actually was true lazy to write yesterday) :-p.
27th Sep, 2009 - The FIRST TIME - this day is marked in my history. If i ever go down in my pensive after like some years i will always remember this day. I am actually software engineer right now working in a firm called Accenture. (dont worry it aint my dream job, neither my intrest, i m doing this because i just got this as 1st and i m nt sure what i wana do in my life. ) Getting into the personal details of my life is not why i came here. i m here to jote down that 1st time. IT HAPPENED. (o.O btw what u guys r thinking.... f__kers dont even go in any wrong thinking line. i wud hunt u down and kill ya :-p)
i was wid 2 more friends of mine, saturday night as i m broke for last 2months as i was on leave widut pay so we didnt went out or something. all jammed in my rented place a small room, 3 single, lil white rum & little black rum, a lotsa food, Above all 2bricks of ice cream (come on i can never ever forget that - i meant bricks of ice cream .... hehhehhe)
hehehhe dont worry this is actually nothing this place is a palace for bacheolars u can dream about it i have it.
after long chatting sessions, drinking sessions, eating sessions, we all went to the rooftop around 4:30am (rooftop is like 6th floor - lets say roof is at enough height. if someone wana jump he/she will die and if some1 wants nice breeze he is in a correct place).
with bottle of water in hand and some SandWiches a long climbing of stairs dude (its like gng to vaishno devi - a famous holy shrine of Hindus - been their 3 times in my life, as it was close from my hostel)
finally we all are enjoying the weather at the top and merrily gossipying and taking each others happiness for a trip. Then suddenly i heard one of them saying we will play ringa ringa roses ( a childhood game) but my friend had a condition. No1 talks about playing this game to any1 as it can hamper my friend's image.
I was like watchin image in the shadow and trying to hamper it and my friend is watchin a image of a wall and thinkin its me. my friend was high -- hi for 1st time since the time i know. And he was on a roll.
we talked about like lotsa things i dont even remember what all but that night widut starless sky. It rained like cats and dogs and we came down to my apartment around 6:00 Am to eat the ice cream that was kept in the refrigerator. It was something that none of us wanted to miss but the fact was all of us were living on different dimensions.
There was nothing like adventrous apart from the fact of climbing the stairs without talkin so no1 else in my building gets up. But no matter what happens went up had a chat for sometime.
One of them was giving fundass about street lights reflection and causing the orange colour in the sky (it was actually very early morning ... so orange colour was because of the sunlight somewhere in the world coming towards us )
Standing their and thinking i also thought about this fact ( Even darkness has to give way to light) it actually felt true that if you know your dream u can get it. I m still wondering if my dream is to go in politics or somewhere else. But i feel till now that i shud be in politics .......

In India Politics is aint something shud be in. Its a war out in parliament but not with arms or anything. Its a war with animals. The one who lives is not the one whose the best .. he/she is the best conner/cheater/Harami.
I dont wana be anyone of these but i wana change this system and i think i will someday.
in 1949 (wow thats like 50years back ... a person named as Dr B.R. Ambedkar wrote this constitution i am gona change it. I am not hoping to change it for my best but for the best of the majority in the country.)
everybody is selfish in this world and i m also. But aint this selfish to take out bread and butter of a poor to buy 4different kinds of dishes in a meal and waste 3 and a half outa them.
Everbody thinks for himself (one of the best quality) - bt just for 1time outa 1000times do something for some1 else ... this world will be a lot of better place.
I think one day someone has to teach to people they are social beings so when they see someone of their type they should greet them via saying hi, vanakam, helllo, namaste, other salutations. not stab a knife in his/her throat, con him/her, murder, kill, steal etc.. etc...

Dont think and wait because time is not gona stay their for u to think. So do what u feel like. if you feel like running away go ahead no-one can stop you from doing what you want. But, just think is it worth it and whats gona happen to the people ur linked with..........

if you can answer this question you know your path. I am still standing at the divergence and i dont know whats my correct path,

Ever heard about Indian Mythology. It revolves about 3 main gods Brahma (creator of Universe), Vishnu (preserver of the universe) and Shiv (the destroyer of universe). Come on its a long story and i aint gona write it for anyones benefit. DODO not any cost go read it yourself. The only identity i will be focussing from now onwards in this post is gona be Siva (the destroyer). His identity is incorporated with some specific features i think he is the one who gave birth to all the sci-fi movies. He is the only god who is purplish colour ( because he drank the poison, otherwise whole of the poison would have killed everyone in the universe). He lives on mountains tops of highest mountains of Himalayas because of the heat generation due to the poison he drank. Don't worry this is just a starting he murdered (brutally cut the throat of his own son) but when he realised his mistake he put elephant's head on his son's body (WOW WOW WOW) this isn't possible till now. He has a third eye on his forehead just in the middle of his both eyes. That eye always remain closed if that eye is opened universe will be destroyed (looks like eye of sauron - in lord of the rings :P). Moreover, dont worry he aint too much of a party man u wudnt be seeing him a lot :P. This god legalises the use of drugs. He takes BHAANG (i dont knw the english name of this drug, but its amazing drug in itself) as offerings in his own temples. (Legalized drug and use is allowed especially on shiv ratri (his B'day). Last but not least he can beat anyone in dancing competition (should perform in any of these talent shows). If he dance (TANDAV - dance of shiv) the world will destroy. He is a powerhouse of all the stunts and supernatural powers u cud have ever seen on TV or read in books. I still think the mythology has mistaken the identity of Shiv, he should be a devil as per the power description it has. Atleast it would be more fun if he is on their side.

Devil dance thats what i say to it. hmmmm u wud be thinkin what retard am i and why am writting all this. I m writting all this is because i m doing that devil dance myself. The only differnce my devil dance (DD) and tandav is. My DD destroys me big time and tandav destroys the universe. hehehhehehehe
Think think think thats all i gona do for next some days whole of my next 50years depend on my next 6months if i screw them this time i would have to make some serious changes in my life. These changes aint the simple and easy ones, they gone be turn tabels. time keeps changing from 1 second to another, people keep on changing, life keeps on changing, but even in the end ur the only one who has to move on because life never stops and dont fuck around 2much because u have to be damn freakingly f__cklingly lucky to get 2nd chance. But for me i m screwed to many times. Sitting in this new office in bangalore still in my 1st firm after the suckiest rating of my whole life. dont worry i knw this bcz i knw it from once and all. I will avenge myself from this verbose of vengenacne. The only thing that reamins will be VENGENANCE, from 2people they have to pay!!!
apart from this rest is all been fine.....

catch u up in smtime dodo